This Great ADVENTURE
Monday, August 7, 2017
Quarter Life Crisis
Wednesday, January 18, 2017
Love Letter
Dear Tacos,
Where do I begin? You’ve impressed me all my life. As a child, I loved you. I only knew of American tacos at the time, but I loved you just the same. Your massive flour tortilla, juicy ground beef with sour cream and lettuce. “Yum” was all I could say…Literally. Over time, my childhood love turned into desperation. I wanted food, and I wanted it cheap. That was our “Taco Bell” stage. I won’t say any more about that. Even through the hard times, you stuck by my side and filled me with happiness.
Thankfully, our love has evolved since the Taco Bell days. I remember the first time my friends took me to the local taco truck. My life was forever changed. I could smell the limes from a mile away. I saw Jarrito’s soda and salsa lining the taco truck window, and then…I saw you. The cook passed a plate full of tacos to the man in front of me, and I just couldn’t help myself. The corn tortilla, the carne asada, the cilantro… It all just hit me like a ton of bricks. I ordered you for myself, and the moment you touched my lips, my life was forever changed. “THIS is what tacos should be like,” I thought. It was a blissful moment.
I know time has passed since then, but I still think of you just as fondly. I’m sure to find you, wherever I may be. I thought you were gone forever when I left Florida, but turns out it was only the beginning of our journey. I couldn’t find you at our favorite taco truck anymore, but since then I have discovered a plethora of taco stands downtown, just waiting to reunite us. My friends still send photos of that taco truck, thinking that it will make me jealous and convince me to return. What they don’t know is that I have a piece of you with me everywhere I go. In the fridge waiting for lunch, at the local Mexican restaurant, one of those taco stands… Nothing can keep us apart, for I know you’ll find a way to me regardless of distance or circumstance. We have a love that few understand, many envy, and some even resent. All I can do is share my love in attempt to spread the same happiness that you have brought me.
Forever yours,
Jordan Morrill
Thursday, June 16, 2016
Changes
It's been over a year since I've posted. I doubt anyone's really noticed, but I'm back anyways. Ha. Hey guys.
A WHOLE lot has happened since my last post... I mean, I would hope so... It's been almost a year and a half. EEK!
Let me update you. Clearly, I came back from my mission in November 2014. I started working at Walgreens (for, like, a month), and then I landed the GREATEST job with wonderful people and an incredible company in a pediatrics office. I was there for over a year and I loved [almost] every minute of it.
Over the past year and a half I've done a whole lot of growing, and a whooooole lot of learning. I wish I could eloquently summarize all that I've been through since last January, but I don't know how. I've had to learn lessons the hard way and some of those moments have been seriously difficult, but I've let them shape me into something better. Now I know what I want for my future and there's no settling for anything less.
Anyways, after a year in pediatrics I realized it was time for another big step- pursuing my education. (Gross, I know).
At the beginning of the year I was accepted to LDS Business College, where I will be returning once again to pursue my Associates degree. Committing to a school in Salt Lake unfortunately means one thing- MOVING.
JORDAN TAKES SALT LAKE CITY (yes, again)...
Let's talk about that real quick. You might be sensing a bit of Deja Vu right now. That would be because only 4 years ago, I graduated high school and immediately moved to Utah in pursuit of the exact same thing. I was ready to be out on my own, leave the small town behind, and spread my wings in the big city. I thought I had it all figured out. I fully intended on staying, finishing my degree, and then seeing what life had to offer after that point. Well, God had another plan. I made a lot of big changes in my own life, had a desire to serve a mission, quit school, tried to save money and prepared to serve the people of California and Brazil. Just like that.
That being said, here I am 4 years later with the same objectives as my 18 year old self. This time I'm definitely better equipped for the task than I was then, so hopefully good things are coming. Spiritually I grew leaps and bounds last time I was here, and while I will always have room for improvement in that regard, I know that I have so much more to learn in this city. I know I'll be tried and tested and this whole process is going to kick my trash, but I am ready!
My dad and I road tripped all the way from Florida to Utah 2 weeks ago. It was incredibly hard to say goodbye, but I know I'll be back soon enough. Really though, all of my friends are getting married soooo I have to be there for the weddings... So many weddings.
I got a job with Intermountain Healthcare and I start on Monday, and I CANNOT WAIT. Honestly. Being unemployed in (sort of) new place 2,500 miles away from all your friends does bad, bad things to a person. I find things to occupy my time, but I have nowhere I have to be, no one to see, nothing to do... (cue Perfectly Lonely by John Mayer. That's my life.) BUT I know I'll be running around like crazy soon and I'll be wishing for this time back.. The grass is always greener on the other side, right?
ANYWAYS, during this process, one word keeps coming to mind. REBUILD.
Rebuild. Since I've been home, I've been building up a life in Florida all by myself, and in retrospect it was actually pretty dang good. I LOVE the people I surrounded myself with. I loved my job. My church group. Friends. Our weekend taco truck runs. I was living the life. But looking back, it took a lot of time and LOTS of work to get to that point. I worked hard, played hard, and put my blood, sweat and tears into making that life.
So here I am now, with the opportunity to start fresh and REBUILD. To work and sweat and fight and pray until my life is put back together again.
I read an article a while back that was talking about stress, and he told a story about lobsters and how they grow. They are soft creatures living within an outer shell which protects them, but it does not grow with them. As they grow, the shell becomes uncomfortable and tight. It no longer fits them. When the shell becomes to small, they hide under rocks for protection, removes the original shell, and produces another- and this process repeats itself as the lobster continues to grow. This man related this story to stress, and pointed out that the only reason that the lobster hides and sheds their shell is because they become uncomfortable. These times of discomfort are merely times for growth. We grow under moments of adversity. That being said, this move has been tough. It's not all fun and wild dreams. It takes work. It's uncomfortable. In Florida, I was growing and found myself in a place where I needed to shed that smaller shell. While it's easy to forget how much time and effort went into my life there, it's so important to remember that I built it there, and I can rebuild here in Utah. This move is an opportunity for more growth. Because of this step, I know now that I have more room to grow into the person I need to be. Those things I had in Florida? I'll get that back. I'll get that and more. It's just a matter of work, patience, and trust in the Lord.
Life is good!
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Good Things To Come
Monday, December 15, 2014
Patience, Inspiration, and Late Night Revelation.
3 Ye cannot behold with your natural eyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the glory which shall follow after much tribulation.
4 For after much tribulation come the blessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand.
Okay, touché.
Q: Okay then I get that, but still.. What do ya want me to do? Where do ya want me? Just tell me where to go and I'll do it. I'm all in. Let's go. I just need a lil direction.
A: 26 For behold, it is not meet that I should command in all things; for he that is compelled in all things, the same is a slothful and not a wise servant; wherefore he receiveth no reward.
27 Verily I say, men should be anxiously engaged in a good cause, and do many things of their own free will, and bring to pass much righteousness;
28 For the power is in them, wherein they are agents unto themselves. And inasmuch as men do good they shall in nowise lose their reward
29 But he that doeth not anything until he is commanded, and receiveth a commandment with doubtful heart, and keepeth it with slothfulness, the same is damned.
Alright fine I get it. No more transfer calls. No more "Hey Sister Morrill, I need you RIGHT HERE and I need you to take a bus at 9 PM on Sunday night to get there and you'll meet your companion when you get off and yall will choose together what to do and I'll be with you okay?"
You're a grown woman, GET YO'SELF TOGETHER. We're back to real life. We choose and we act and we make mistakes or good choices and we get consequences, and that's part of the thrill of it. Nothing is for certain, but if we do what we know is right, so many of our decisions, whether or not they are perfectly made and organized, will still be for our benefit. We're here to learn and grow. We can't wait to be physically placed exactly where God wants us and wait for all of it to fall into place. We've got to make the path and ask God for the help along the way.
So now is the time to decide. If they don't have what I want or need here, I can go. I can stay. I can look harder. I can find somewhere with other opportunities. I'm not assigned a mission or a companion. I choose. I can do anything, and it's completely up to me. I still don't know exactly where I'm headed or what I'll do with it, but God trusts me and I trust Him to lead me right.
Truthfully, I thought I learned this "relying on God" lesson on my mission, but what I'm really learning is that that is exactly what the test is on earth. We're going to be tested and tried and it's going to be hard and lines are going to be blurred and we're going to have to choose hard things. And each of our decisions will bring us a step closer or a step further from God, but every time we choose good and ask Him for the help or strength or whatever we may need.. He'll be there. It's not a question. The only question is if we will trust that or not.
8 ¶For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your waysmy ways, saith the Lord.
9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my wayshigher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
He knows better, and He's never changing. We can trust in Him and trust in the ability that He has given us to choose for ourselves. We have our road map. We have our scriptures, prayer, and a living prophet on the earth today. We have the Spirit's guidance. We are unstoppable.